Trust

“Firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something”

It’s something almost everybody struggles with at one point in life. Something that’s so hard to gain, but can be lost in a split second. As a rider, I’ve learned many times how much trust can have an influence on results. It’s often a deciding factor between success and disaster in our sport. As much as any team needs to be able to trust one another completely, horse and rider have to have the same connection.. Except without words.
Something I knew before, but am very aware of now, is how much every horse varies. Just like people, horses have very distinct personalities. Some will be easier to build a partnership with, while others will be standoffish for quite a while before you really get to know them.
When I first began riding, I was put on a big black beauty named Otis. My first ride on him was bareback, being led around the back pasture at Bluebear. Not long after that you could find the two of us galloping across fields chasing geese. He was the first horse I trusted completely. That being said its much easier to trust when you’re 7 years old and have absolutely no fear. Nonetheless we formed that special partnership that all equestrians will know of.
I’ve been through many horses since Otis. Washington, my mom’s horse, and I never quite got past the despising each other part. Monty, the loveable little appy who took me to my first provincial show and taught me oh so much about staying in the saddle before and after jumps. Then there came Flash, a chestnut mare who very much lived up to the stereotype of chestnut mares. Flash and her previous owner had been in the same 4H club and teams as I had (with Monty) for a few years and we’d seen Flash win everything in site, as well as be a complete bitch here and there too. When we bought her, we knew she had issues- but what horse doesn’t? This beautiful girl became my closest friend and my worst enemy depending on the day. She was a horse that was hard to trust, I can’t lie. We had some pretty rocky days. But the relationship we built was rock solid. She took me to many wins and taught me almost everything I know about trust, and how to handle chestnut mare syndrome. Unfortunately she developed some soundness problems in the last couple years I owned her, which made competing much more of a touch and go scenario. Eventually it became painfully (literally) clear that she was sick of the show routine and was ready for the next part of her life. She enjoyed demonstrating this by bucking, rearing, and playing games in the middle of classes. Our last show together was Carman Fair 2010 where we had a less than ideal show, which ended with her rearing, me bailing, landing very hard on my shoulder- ripping my favourite show shirt, and the judge finally looking our way. Since selling her was too hard and we wanted to know who would own her, she was traded back to her original breeders- who still remembered her as the first horse who ever made them money in the show ring (she was 2nd in the ’97 50/50 futurity). In return we got Felix, and the right to one more of their foals.
In comes Willard. Another horse who it took me a long time to build trust in. It took so much to get him to where he is today (or where he was in August of last year anyway). I grew up a lot in the process. In order to build trust, you first have to have confidence enough in yourself to build your horse’s confidence. This was the case with Will. He needed me to be the confident one as he was as timid as a mouse. You’ll find a lot of horses are this way, especially green horses. If you knew me when I was younger, you’d know that I wasn’t the most confident. As I got older and more involved in athletics, theatre, and progressed in my riding, this changed of course. And it got easier to ride Will- and thus Will began to grow up too- becoming what he is now.
When you really think about it, it takes so much trust to do what we riders do. Hopping on a 1100lb plus animal and expecting it to listen to you let alone jump around a course of big obstacles sounds insane to a lot of people. But personally, and I know many will agree, I could not imagine doing anything else. The past few days I’ve been exercising race horses at an extended trot around the pastures of Airhill farm. These thoroughbreds are all on average about 16.3 or bigger and are some of the best race horses/ jump race (steeplechase) horses in New Zealand. Galloping up steep inclines is at its best a little terrifying but I’ve found that I’m absolutely in love with it. Every muscle in my body is sore and tired, and I’m way past the point of exhaustion. But I’m still saying yes to another ride out and smiling as the horse races up the hill on the way to the work out trail. In this kind if situation you have to be able to build the trust quickly. You don’t have months or years to build a relationship. You have seconds, maybe minutes, to trust the horse you’re on and establish a confidence. As I said earlier, each horse is different. Yorkie, one horse I exercise, is quiet and likes to know I’m there with him, and needs more contact on the reins.. While King is quite hot to start out, will not stand still and needs a more relaxed contact to relax himself. All these little things need to be picked up on quickly if you’re going to have a successful ride.
I’m getting pretty excited to get home to my own horse, as much as I love riding all these talented horses in this beautiful landscape- there’s nothing quite like that feeling when you’re on a horse you have that special bond with. I’m sure Willard will present me with some new challenges, as he’s become quite the spoiled brat in my absence. I’ve gotten myself back in shape, now it’s hammer time for Mr.Willard. Poor guy. His leisurely days of lazy life are nearly over!

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Timing is everything

We had the most amazing thing happen to us today!

I’ve joined Hannah and Niamh, two grooms I worked at LC with, and we’re road tripping about. Our strategy is to stay in a campsite one night, and then sleep in our car for a couple nights. We slept in our car last night. This car is not a big car. It’s a small ’89Toyota corolla, and it’s stuffed full of all our stuff. We are quite the site when we finally all get tucked in. I originally started out in the driver’s seat, but after getting stuck between the steering wheel a few times I switched Niamh (who is the size of a pixie stick) for the back. Which was quite alright if I stuck my legs out the window.

Anyway, today! We lined up a temporary job at racing barn, with trainer Paul Nelson, and due to bad directional skills/common sense got there an hour late. Nevertheless, we went straight to exercising the steeplechasers up, down, and around the rolling hills. The views were absolutely spectacular, and it was so much fun! I missed riding a good thoroughbred, and it’s a great work out too! The horse I was riding, Yorkie, was at least 17hh. I’ll try to get some pictures of the view tomorrow. Pretty much imagine the best landscape you’ve ever seen and quadruple it. Even better from the back of the horse. Almost better then the riding, we’ve been given beds and so far lunch AND dinner. Oh and showers. For homeless people like us this is huge. Plus we’re getting paid. I wish I found this 6 months ago!
We’re planning on staying until Sunday and then moving on to Wellington. Based on today, if I didn’t want to see the South Island before I left I’d be tempted to take up Paul’s full time offer.
They fed us lamb roast with delicious veggies and wine for supper. Such nice people! Tomorrow Hannah and I are the only two working so we’ll be off our feet riding out horses all morning. It will be exhausting, but so much fun I’m sure. I actually feel like I’m finally in decent shape again- after handling today’s work out quite well while a few others were pretty breathless after a few laps of the valley. My legs are a big jelly like now, though- which is fair enough as I haven’t ridden in so long- especially not at this intensity. But I’m loving it!
I have lots of pictures from the past few days here in Napier, which I promise I will post ASAP. I just need to find the energy to edit them- which I do not have right now. This lovely bed is calling me and after about a week sleeping on solid ground and in cars.. Well.. This is basically a 5 star hotel.
Here are a few pics from Parachute though!

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Champions

I’m practicing my visualisation skills this morning while eating our pb and j breakfast after cooking and serving sausages, baked beans, and numerous other delicious sights and smells. If I try real hard this sandwich really does taste like hot sausages and beans. Mmmm.
It was a breezy 10 degrees last night and pretty darn chilly. I slept alone in our tent pod as apparently when Jenaya tried to get in last night I went, and I quote, “all ninja on her ass” and she slept in another part of the tent. Note to self, no ninja-ing tonight.
Our shift is only a couple hours in and we’re already pulling out the milo and coffee mix. I call it miloffee. Our accents are getting quite a lot of attention and apparently mine is a lot less thick now. But still very present. Jenaya and I are very aware that we’ll be the two coolest people in Carman when we get back because we’ll be chatting away in kiwi slang and nobody will know what we’re on about.
Sweet as!

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Food Prep Stars

Chilling at Parachute Music Fest this weekend with my good friend Jenaya! We’re volunteers so we get in free (score!) and we also got the best shifts possible. We’re on breakfast prep all weekend, so that means we work from 7am til approx 12 and then have the whole day to chill and enjoy the festival!

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Snapshots from the past week!

Went to rodeos in Wairora, and Upper Mohaka this weekend, about a 9 hour drive from Kaukapakapa. The weather was beautiful and summery! Met up with Hannah and Niamh at Wairora and I’m getting very excited to join them again in a week for our south island adventure. There is a possibility of doing some groom work down there on the show circuit too! Won’t say no to some extra cash!
Here are some shots I took along the way!

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Packing done my way

I’ve found myself wondering, quite often actually, if I could fit into my gigantic bag. Well.. I can.

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Rodeos, tan lines, and decisions

I realise last week that I said I’d write, and that it is now this week.. Nevertheless here we are.

As I mentioned before, we moved last week to a new place near Kaukapakapa, outside of North Shore, Auckland. I will only be here for a week or so before I move onto new adventures. On the 25th I’m going south ish to Cambridge to see my good friend Jenaya, and volunteer at a music festival in that area. I’ll hang out there until the 30th and then zoom down (I’m really not zooming, it’s an 8 hour bus trip) to Wellington at the bottom of the North and meet Niamh and Hannah, my Irish friends who I worked with at LC. From there a grand adventure to the South Island commences. I plan on spending the month of February seeing everything I can, so when I fly home in MARCH (!!!!!!!!!!!!!) I have lots of great memories to share.

What have I been up to the past few weeks (when I haven’t been writing) you ask? Well let me fill you in.

I spent the week after Christmas on the rodeo circuit, started in Gisbourne (a 10 ish hour drive with a trailer) and worked our way back through Opotiki and then Taupo. Notable experiences from that week are:
1. Being fed raw cray fish, raw snapper, raw oysters (fresh from the sea off the shell), and some other form of raw bottom feeder. I was a source of great entertainment for all the Maori cowboys feeding me these things. Great sense of humour they have! Atleast now I can say I’ve tried it, right?
2. Riding briefly along the beach outside Opotiki- even though it was for like 5 minutes max.
3. Swimming in the gorge on our way from Opotiki to Taupo. Cold as Portage Avenue on a windy day in February, but worth it. The fact that the water was crystal clear and it was a river amazed me.
4. Having my second official driving lesson…. While dd-ing for a truck full of drunk cowboys in Taupo. We only told them it was my third time driving on the left and standard after we were moving.

We came home for a night that Friday, where I managed to get a stomach flu and was out for the weekend. So what did I do for new years? Fell asleep at 10:20pm and slept for 13 hours straight. But I stayed up for Canada’s new year! It was really weird being in 2012 before everyone else!

I spent the first week of January hanging around the house on Gumtown Road, while Ali and Dallas continued on with rodeos. I didn’t mind, though, as the weather was pretty wet anyway. Atleast I was dry! Unfortunately I managed to pass some of what I had onto the rodeo crew. Oops.

On Wednesday the 11th, I had my last appointment with Dr. Charles and reached the 2 month mark of no pain! My avoidance of riding for the past 3.5 months is paying off. Now we just have to cross our fingers and toes that it keeps up when I start riding again. Charles explained his diagnoses again, that the alignment (or disalignment) of my left shoulder/clavicle is what causes issues with my hips and lower back. Still wonder why nobody was able to figure that out till now, but now I know!

That pretty much brings us to now. I went back to Whangarei for the big Mid Northern rodeo this past weekend. Watched Dallas kick some serious ass, winning both her barrel races, and having the second best time (17.2) of the whole weekend for all divisions- including the big guns in the first division! On Saturday I found out how difficult it is to say goodbye to friends I’ve made, knowing I probably won’t see them again. Since I’m leaving for some new adventures soon and they aren’t coming to the rodeo in Hastings area this weekend- this was my last weekend with those crazy Maori cowboys. But I won’t likely forget them anytime soon! And hopefully they won’t forget “Meow” anytime soon either.

As for my decision to come home 2 months early, I’ve given it lots of thought. Although it’s great being here and seeing the things I’m seeing, not only will my funds run out soon- I’m more than ready to get home, get riding, and get working on my goals. This working holiday turned into a holiday pretty fast, and I’m not someone who can do nothing for long periods of time. I’ve almost reached my limit for that and am getting pretty anxious to be at home where I can be working towards my goals seriously again! I plan on taking one or two spring courses in may/June. The main one being Anatomy. Also having the extra two months at home will allow me to get mr Willard back into shape and more prepared for the 2012 season- same for my bank account. I hate to give up on my Bali plans.. But hey- that’s a trip for another time. Gives me something to plan for! Cause as my mom likes to say, I’m always atleast 6 months ahead of myself.

As much as nothing about the past 5/6 months has gone to plan.. I feel like things are working out how they should. Finally. Knowing life, it won’t feel like that for long- but I’m enjoying it right now, so that’s what matters. As it sits now, I have about 6 weeks left in this beautiful country and I plan on making the most of it! Very excited to be on the South Island again!

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Passion

This makes me happy!

Eric is a huge inspiration to me, and when I heard the news of Hickstead’s untimely and sudden death a few months ago I was absolutely devastated, as was most of the equestrian world. I was equally as devastated at the idea that he would retire from the sport early. Although he had many reasons to leave the sport, after the career he’s had, I just couldn’t believe that he would. Knowing what I feel after being away from it for even a few short months I couldn’t see how he could lose his passion, even after such a hard and completely unimaginable loss. Much to my relief, as you will see in the above article if my link works, he has decided to keep going and do his best to still qualify for London on a new mount. YAY!!!!